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Waking Nightmare
20:50 Sep 25 2017
Times Read: 89
I keep having the same dream over the last few years,
Always the same,
Well I think it's a dream or I'm sleep walking or something,
Come night time, I sometimes come over feeling sick, my body feels like it's on fire, even when I strip off all my clothes which are now so wet from sweat that it looks like I've held them under water,
I fall to the floor in pain,
I feel strange and stronger than normal,
I seem to black out but see what seems to be a dream, I'm moving fast and moving in and out of the trees, I'm low to the floor, almost like I'm on all fours,
I can feel my heart racing, I can hear a twig break, the vision comes to a stop, like I'm waiting for something,
Then I start to move again, faster and faster, so fast I feel like my feet will left off the floor,
Crashing though some bushes,
Then come down on something,
It's warm , I feel something running down from my lips and teeth,
Then I wake up, sometimes no were near my house, but most of of the time I wake in my backyard, hands and feet muddy and body with dirty marks over it,
Hate sleep walking :(
One option left
15:39 Sep 24 2017
Times Read: 108
As I lay here alone thinking about my life I have noticed a few times that I fucked up,
Maybe more than a few times,
But everyone does, people try to be perfect, or want to be center of attention, which I find funny, I've never wanted to be that in any way,
It's took a long time to short out a personal matter and taking time to short out life in general,
But I do feel I've gone as far as I can but gone to far to turn back,
Maybe I only have one option left
Miss you :_(
00:32 Sep 21 2017
Times Read: 118
so why is it that someone you were in love with and not talked to for so long , can still drive you crazy , like there always on your mind,
Every day and night,
You hear there voice in your head,
All you want is there hand to touch you , to hold you,
So long back and forth, but they always have your heart,
But in the end they have moved on, and your left alone and broken,
You see there face and hear there voice,
But know they will never love you the same ever again
Lost Love
11:53 Sep 11 2017
Times Read: 145
You were the one who took my hand,
The one who made me what I am,
We talked and smiled under the stars,
You didn't care about my scar's
We were one and the same, even pick out a place with a name,
But the darkness inside of me became too strong,
So now I stand alone,
Alone with out you,
My angel in the night, I still dream of your voice which still breathes light,
But I still see you stood there, just out of reach,
Please bring my peace,
Before the beast :(
Sick As A Dog
16:17 Sep 10 2017
Times Read: 154
So many things have passed so far this year, and we have not even come to the end of it,
So from the start of this year as many friends will know I was in and out of hospital,
And now out the meds are lowering my defense, so I am sick as a dog,
But I will carry on fighting,
As I'm off to Norway then Sweden before coming home to plan next year,
And of course I'm working on my master plan, which will be completed come new year,
That's all for now
USA
10:14 Sep 09 2017
Times Read: 156
So the plan for next year is to fly to the US, around October,as a friend wants to see what Halloween is like over there,
Not too sure myself, one Halloween is like another, but it should be fun to see and meet friends from over there face to face,
Now if I can only decide on which hotel to stay at, :)
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